If You Could See Me Now, Darling,
You would see me
sober yet only mildly alert.
My cigarettes merely guard
the gates of insanity
and I drink tea (not coffee)
to temper the anxiety.
Not a day or a kiss or a lifetime goes by
without me staving off your ethereal
temptation with all the might I hardly muster
Sometimes I sleep all day only to dream
Sometimes I stay awake
only to avoid those dreams.
If Only You Could See Me Now, Darling
If Only You Could See Me Now.